Saturday, November 15, 2008
Terrible
I have 5 more papers to go. 3 the coming week. 2 the following week. I prayed with my friends on Wednesday before our first paper and I think it's cool! :)
Oh well. Terrible. What was so terrible then?
I. Made. A. Mistake.
And I still can't come to terms with it.
I was... Very. Affected. I had no mood to study.
But I was reminded of last week's sermon. Pastor Jadene preached about insecurity and I was reminded that my security is in God and not in the things that I do. She said that the world finds security in results and accomplishments... But we find our security in Him. I know sometimes I fall into the trap of the world.. I can't help it.. But I thank God for gentle reminders through friends and sermons.. It made me change my perspective of things.
I don't think I have fully come to terms with the problem yet. BUT I really want to concentrate on my exams first. I guess I will only feel the full impact of the situation when I start to settle the problem.
I think I've already eaten the humble pie.
I've already admitted my grave mistake.
I've apologised to some.
Now I seek their kind understanding, else I'll be trapped in this terrible moment. Forgiveness comes in both ways. I need to forgive myself and the others need to forgive me. They need to assure me as well....
I am learning.
Still learning.
And I definitely took home some pointers.
This year, my ministry went into the doldrums...
But I know it will only get better.
it was recorded.
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