Sunday, July 16, 2006
I've been blogging everyday. So you see, I am really bored and I have absolutely nothing to do. My soon-to-be roomie asked me last week, "Has the past 7 months been meaningfully spent?" I really had no anwswer to it.. Maybe I should take this time to really think and reflect about my life and do something about it. Maybe I should take this time to build stronger relationships with my family and friends. I shall enjoy this privilege while it last! I mean, I seriously think I would not have so much time to bum around once school starts! I am afraid! I am afraid I would move in the wrong direction-away from You. I am afraid of the distractions. I am afraid I would lose my passion for You. I am afraid I would lose my focus. I am afraid of meeting new people. Haaa.. I think I'm just too comfortable with the people around me? So, am I worrying or am I just being conscious of what may happen and hope to avoid it at all cost? Do pray for me okay!
Aye. I was supposed to run today. We were supposed to run as a team today. But only 2 end up participating in the Singapore Shape Run 06. Much apologies to christin and kavi for having to fly your aeroplanes. The rest of the team ought to apologise too! hehe. I was too exhuasted. I still am. (I don't know with what. Ironic isn't it? Too much time at home but too tired? Wonder what I've been up to.) And to chee may for troubling you to sign up for the run. Anyhow, I collected the goodie bag just now. I mean I paid for it, so might as well take it. Whao! I am shocked with what's in it! Expensive stuff! Amongst the goodies are a nike towel, the mini nike bottle, a pair of socks, 2 shape magazines (May 06 and June 06), many many vouchers to pamper myself, vitamins, slimming pills (haha!), sachets of shampoo and body wash... etc. And a COOL handbag that contained the goodies! HEH. What a steal.. I think I paid $10 for these? (or was it $25?)
I've decided to stay at home today. Original intention was to stay at home and REST. Perhaps write letters to a few people and have some time alone with God. But guess what!? I've already wasted 3 quarters of the day doing nothing! I am going back to sleep again.. HEH. I need to rejuvenate and get ready for my camp!
I'm pretty excited about the upcoming camp. I love camps. Stupidly, I registered for 2 consecutive camps.. without even considering how tired I would be after the first. Oh weeeellls, all for the fun of it! Heh. And you know what, I bravely signed up for the camps even though I do not know anyone else going. But, thank God abercrombie is going for this one.
Sigh. If only I have had that much enthusiasm in signing up for church youth camps. I remember I was forced to join last year's camp. I never had the intention to sign up because ALL my closer friends were not going. So, it made me think about my motives.. Was I just going to the camp to stick with my friends? Then again, the committee would not place me in the same group as my friends. So what's the diff? What's so different between going to the camp alone and going with my friends? For the sake of familiarity I presume. Hmmm... Maybe it's time I start to get to know the youths better? To love them more? Like what Joey shared over cell, his batch was able to grow and serve the Lord so faithfully up till now because they had big jie jies and big kor kors who watched over them and guided them along. So.. is it my turn now to be the big sister to the youths now? Maybe it's time to move towards the "out pouring" end instead of remaining at the "receiving" end. HAHA. I am laughing at my own statement. Not sure if I am even ready to turn my words into action. Need to do some check up. HEH.
And... to b2 and budd, thanks for sharing how you felt... I am thankful. You know, God is just so comical. Just as you thought you were in the situation alone, He made us feel the same way about each other, about the friendship, about the situation we are in. To b2, our friendship has been tested more than ever this year.. Whao... but I am happy to hear that there is mutual love for each other. We know it, yea? To budd, you know how happy i was to see you smile yesterday? It really meant a lot. I just wanna let you know that we are all in it together. Although I may not have fully understood what you've went through/are going through.. I really want to be there for you. So, don't leave me out yeah!
Okay, my thoughts are all out. Now, please pray that we would all enjoy ourselves and do pray for the health of my fellow camp mates too! Oh yesh, for good weather as well! May this camp be an injury-free one! Miss my presence on this blog! =) Now, it feels as though no one is reading. Because no one tags... But it's alright. Because there is not much to comment on either. I believe you all are silent readers. HA. HMMM.. I wonder.
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