Thursday, March 06, 2008
我吃软不吃硬
Okay, I shall blog about everything now while it is still fresh in my mind.
I'm feeling like crap now... I mean I always feel like that when something bad happens. Normal isn't it? Maybe you deal with it with a different way from I do, but if you don't know how I deal with such things, then I'll tell you now - When something bad happens, I will develop a wall around me and pretend that nothing is wrong. I'll sms you in exclamation marks, I'll sound positive when I sms/talk to you. BUT, deep down inside my heart, I feel like crap! I will dwell in the situation for about 2 days. I'll be grouchy and moody.
It was such a humbling experience. I should have asked whenever I am in doubt. I should not have acted smart, as if I knew it all.
I have a very blessed life and I thank God for that. Everything seems to be going on pretty fine, maybe perhaps that's why when a setback occurs, I choose the easy way out, I run away from it. I choose to believe and trust in God for whatever that's happening... I believe in His timing. I choose to believe that things happen so I can learn something out of it, and it could be God's way of building me stronger. He has the best and knows what is good for me. So I need to trust Him.
我吃软不吃硬.
It sucks being away from you, whenever such things happen. Perhaps being away will make me a stronger person as well. And yes, " there is nothing you can do except to pray and ask God to fill your absence and void in my life."
Turning 21 isn't an easy feat. I have a lot of things to catch up on, and I mean A LOT. I should be better prepared next time.
Dear Lord, I thank you for allowing this to happen to me, because I can direct my attention to You. YOU are my only hope and my strength.
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