1. Von and I had the biggest room! ha. We stepped in, saw a walk way with a mini kitchen, one dining table, one table for writing, one living rooom, 2 beds, a tv, a hi fi set and an ultra big toilet with a bath tub, a shower room, 2 sinks, a uriner, a toilet bowl and 3 doors. We were so excited. Started screaming and running all over, thinking that we were super special. So, we started telling everyone that we had a super big room! heh. Little did we know that our room was no different from everyone else. haaa.
2. It was held at Berjaya Times Square- Shopping Paradise. If you know me well, I love to shop. So I was super tempted to shop during the Fellowship. The shops with the 4 letter word (SALE) or those with mega discounts were screaming at me! Ha. I even had to closed my eyes to walk for a little while to resist temptation. heh.
3. We did street evangelism over there. We had to do it in chinese. Super difficult. Most of our Mandarin sound really bad. BUt you know what, God empowered us to speak! I was so encouraged by Michele and Lydia who were initially afraid to share their testimonies, but ultimately shared bravely. Indeed God can turn our littleness into His greatness and our weaknesses into His strength. Praise God for the 10 salvations..
4. Had a great time with von on wed night. We never talked so long before. But I'm sure the talk had strengtened our friendship and trust in each other. Thank you for being there von and being accountable for me. Remember where you belong! They need you. =)
5. I played on Thurs morning. It was a struggle because the service was spirit led. So I was in for a playing-on-the-spot situation. Super tough. hmmm.. felt a little discouraged, heavy and unrelieved. Overwelming heaviness. Raaaahh.. It's different worshipping in the congregation and worshipping while playing. However, I realised I was not the only one feeling this way. My fellow mate felt this way too. Thank God for allowing us to talk and express our feelings to each other. At least we know that we were in the situation together. Like what von said, maybe God wanted us to learn something from that experience? Probably. It has made me ponder more about walk with God. I need to be constantly in tuned with God if I really wanna serve in this ministry. I must also develop genuine love for the people I am serving. No one knows what's gonna happen next. It's kind of sad to hear that the older ones do not know what to do with the trainees. =( Only God knows, so we'll trust God, in His time. Anyways, thanks for your encouragements shifu.
6. Thanks Liang for praying for our families that night. Made me think about what I have been doing with my life too. It's super cool to see the families hugging and praying together. I'm jealous. Hah. Lord, I'll never give up interceeding for my family's salvation.
7. Lester (xd!), you're super sweet. Thanks for the monkey. Catch up soon alright! And I am super sorry for the stale Maggi Meee.. heh. I see your heart! haha. And you know I still love you. =)

This retreat got me thinking about so many things. Each day got more depressing day than the previous. I did not want to hear so many things. Bleah. God was harsh, but I choose to believe that He wants me to realise these things so I could change. It is about time actually. I do not want to waste anymore time. But I think I still need time to recover from the heart surgery... =) The retreat did not end in a hype unlike the other retreats/ youth camps. Very different. There were no happy endings like singing "One Way" and jumping all over. It felt rather solemn. (ha. Maybe some people did not feel this way. Nonetheless, it was how I felt.) I have to re-shuffle my priorities in life. And I must learn to share more. I think I am keeping to myself too much. I need to remove the pride in me and be broken before God... I need to do something more to my private life. I cannot be lazy anymore. I cannot declare status quo and be satisfied, I must hunger for more. I do not want to be the dead sea. The dead sea is dead because it receives too much from the river and has no output. I want to be a sea that is alive... Let the transformation begin! *ah-char!* Pray with me?! Thank you!

Healing Rain is falling down,

Healing Rain is falling down,

I'm not afraid,

I'm not afraid.

it was recorded.
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