Thursday, November 29, 2007
Evicted!
Sigh. I just evicted myself out of hall!!!!!! I 好不容易 got my hall this semester and I LEFT my hall just like that- by ticking the wrong option! AHHHH.. so smart. How smart. Now I've got to bring everything back. I left some stuff at cheem's side of the room.. SO our room is parted my the ailse with one side full of stuff and the other side empty... SIGH. I'm upset! I hope they'll invalidate my withdrawal!
And finally the exams are over. WHEEEE.. I still haven't recuperated from the lack of sleep yet. I'm still very tired and my eye bags are still around.. I need a lot more sleep. And I think I might have just sprained my back today... YIKES. It has the "sprain-ny" feeling now.. :(
Right now, I'll start getting busy with Rhema.. Whooooo-hooooo.. I'm excited! But i think i'll get stressed over the things that need to be completed in the next 9 days.. Actually, I think I'm a little bit stressed already.
Friday, November 23, 2007
Thoughts Running Through My Head
hah. Extensive blogging! My third post of the day.
Anyway, next semester's class schedule is out! Oh mann, I'm not even done with MY current semester yet! Oh yah, I was just looking through them, planning what modules to take and guess what?!!! :(
I might have exams on MY birthday. How sad! :(
What if NO ONE comes for my 21st birthday party? (cos it's DE exam period)
What if NO ONE wants to celebrate with me?
What if NO ONE has time for me?
AWWWW... that'll be super sad. Really. I'll be depressed. I already am a little sad. :(
The Kingdom
Yesterday cheemster and I were so distracted and unproductive, we decided to take time off our notes to watch a movie.
We were contemplating between Heroes (a Jap film) and The Kingdom... And after she checked out on the movie synopsis, we went ahead with The Kingdom. It was a very good film, very realistic. It captured my attention all the way. I even held my wee so that I wouldn't miss any part of it. Some parts were bloody though! Both of us were so tired after the movie. But we were in the reflective mode, discussing about the oil price hike aka the price war.
I'd give it 4 out of 5 stars!
And it did give us (cheemster and i) a good break from school. =)
COUNT DOWN
5 more days to the end of my exams. That means no more routined lifestyle - No more billy brown morning call. No more dragging myself out of bed at 8.30am. No more Lee Wee Nam. No more canteen A food.
16 days to RHEMA 2007. It's gonna be a BLAST. God has been awesome and will be!
22 days to KOREA. Wheeeeeeee!
32 days to CHRISTMAS. YAY, time to spend with my loved ones, a season to give and to receive (thank you for remembering me! hurhur)
39 days to a brand new year. New challenges, new discoveries. A new year ahead with the Lord.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Lost.
Season 4?
I've lost my mood to do anything.. anything at all.
I've lost myself today.
I've lost the battle at the exam hall today.
And now I'm lost.... simply because I have no motivation to do anything already...
It sucks to know that you're the only one who thinks the paper is difficult.
It sucks to see everyone frantically writing during the exam and YOU have nothing to write.
It sucks even more to KNOW that you've actually prepared for the paper, but because you FREAKED out during the weekend and NOTHING went into your head while studying, and you LOSE the whole point of it all - to prove that you know your stuff.
I am very upset.
I've never felt so much for an exam before.
I've never cried myeslf to bed because of an exam.
But this one did.
I wonder why...
*SIAO!*
Maybe I'm a little distracted, maybe I got distracted, maybe I AM distracted. *SHRUGS*
For now, I just pray that God will restore that "sian-ness"... that He'll knock some sense into me and I'll get down to work again... that I'll get a favorable examiner...
This is as raw as it gets
Birthday girl and I in Maisha's Room. (After the surprise. We were in the room where we had our interrogating sessions. hurhur. The person being interrogated has to sit on the HOT seat. The picture below shows how it was like from my point of view.)
haha.
At the bus stop to sheare's hall..
Xtin, Maisha and I before the surprise. We were in this very nice building.. hiding behind the pillars of Spinelli (however you spell it. heh)
Surprise surprise! HQ was totally surprised. Dang, should have captured the moment. But the silly me brought a camera without the memory card! HOW smart. Haha. Chee may says "knock her (my) head"
Miss you gals much! We SHOULD hang soon..
And yes, I SHOULD get down to work again. ;(
10:58 AM
Friday, November 16, 2007
Mosquitoes SUCK.
the mosquitoes in NTU suck!!!!! *pun intended*
1. They suck my blood. I'm probably too sweet. *pun intended too* hahahah... (pardon me)
2. They suck because they are extremely brutal. I was at the bus stop for barely 5 minutes and I got bitten by FOUR mosquitoes! THREE behind my knee... (erm, you know where your leg bends? yeah there.) And ONE at the back of my thunder thighs. AND you have no idea how itchy they are... And how am i going to scratch them at such obscure places. RAAAAH... itchy itchy itchy... ... Oh yes.. they are extremely brutal because they leave SCARS on my legs! I had NINE the other time. Now FOUR more. No more pretty legs - hahahahahaha....
P/S: Pardon me for this random post. I am EXTREMELY, SUPER, stressed to the MAX. :)
7:44 PM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I'm studying hard. heh. See how "chor lor" I am..
My studying "kah kees". Thanks for making studying so fun! You gals have been great motivators and SMARTOs... Me, Crystal, Cheemay, SiaoMei.
Seee, I'm in my most comfortable sitting position again.. And look! I'm wearing the red CAMY shirt! It was chucked in between my clothes in hall ever since I received it, never thought I'd wear it... But since it was a cold morning today, and it's long sleeved, I decided to dig it out of my cupboard and put it to good use. heh. See, at least I'm proud of the shirt. haha.
Are you ready for the last photo? ahhahahahahahah!
Stress Reliever! hurhur.
Look who is at the extreme RIGHT!!!?? hurhur. Say CHEEEESEEEE!~ (Aiyah, what matters is the present and not the past ya!) haha..Alrighty... Hope i'll be able to get pass this week FIRST. More to come.. WHEEE.. It's gonna be an exciting december!
10:49 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
睡不着。
I haven't been able to sleep well at night. Cheemay thinks I'm very stressed. I woke up many many times in the middle of the night, unable to go back to sleep. Sigh, this better not happen when I have my papers. Else, i'll probably be sleeping through my exams.
Anyway, chee may(my rooomate) was really sweet. She knew I couldn't sleep, so she went to body shop to buy the lavander moisturizer and body wash, muscle relaxant which claim to help you sleep.. Awww... I applied it last night, and the whole room was saturated with the smell.. NICE. N so, I fell asleep quite soundly last night. However, I think I'm a very light sleeper because I wake up at the slightest noise..
And because the exams are near, Siao Mei, our friend, is squatting in our room. Thank you huifen for the mattress, else both of them have to squeeze on one bed (cos they know i have back problems). Very thoughtful. She brought her 'trigger ball' for me, which is supposed to massage my back... so nice ah!
I'm blessed to have these two friends. This morning, we went to exercise, cheemay and I swam, while siaomei ran. (by the way, she is gonna represent spore in the SEA games! Whoooo! I have a track queen in my midst.)
Now CheeMay's alarm - the "billy brown song" is STUCK in my head.
Monday, November 12, 2007
The Time Has Come
The exam time is round the corner again! Wheee! (ya right, as if that's my reaction to the exam.)
Here I am, with an oily face, bad hair, sleepless nights, with dark eye rings and a fatty body... mugging for the exams. SIGH. 3/8 semesters already.. very fast. Before you know it, before I know it, I'll be graduating and so are my other friends in uni. *pats my own back* Uni moves at a scarily fast pace.. Eeeks. I'm still daddy's girl and in another 2 and a half years, I'll probably be working - well, if everything goes on well..
Anyway, I am studying in Lee Wee Nam library now. With chee may and siao mei.. Aye, it's scary (and horrifying) how the whole library, including the computer tables are packed (PACKED) with so many people! People have to resort to waking up early in the morning QUEUE up outside the library, chop seats and hibernate/ vegetate/ meditate there the whole day.. Why is everyone so hardworking!? I feel left out. hurhur. Okay, I am blogging because I am killing my monotony. Let me be 不要脸 today.. send me smses to cheer me up/ motivate me (or your friends taking the exams) okay! haha.
Well, I pray that I'll have strength to carry on with the week's activity- studying. And have sound sleep at night. Pray for me too? Thankee!
Good bye! I'll probably be back again after my exams. :)
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Untitled.
Have you ever asked yourself this question: "Why do I blog?" I've been asking myself, and sometimes I really don't know what's the use of blogging when no one reads, when you're the only one who understands what you are writing, when some personal things are just meant for the private eye, when some thing are just meant to be seen by ONE person... Okay, that aside, I shall blog about me, myself and I.. Anyhow, it's gonna be a random post, so the thoughts may be jumbled up. Therefore the title -Untitled.
I think I'm suffering from insomia because I can't sleep well at night (like when it's time to sleep).. I end up tossing in bed or having bad dreams. Sometimes I'm just physically on the bed, physically sleeping, but I'm still concious.. Get what i mean? That's why I fall asleep elsewhere.. in lectures, on the bus..
My eyes feel like they are popping out even as I'm writing this post. I took a nap just now, BUT just as I was entering into Dream land, my auntie came to my room to wake me up for dinner. SIGH. I'm half awake, yet half sleeping.
I conclude that I am extremely stressed. That's why I can't sleep properly. My exams are in ten days. And I have a lot, and i mean A LOT of unfinished business to do. *screams out loud* I really need God's grace mann.. My body is reacting to the stress.. My hair is messy (ahem). My pimples are coming out. My back isn't giving me a good time either. I have been having back problems and only recently did it become very painful and tight (still bearable, but it sucks to be able to feel the tension). My physiotherapist says that my back is like a block of wood. And I need to get it corrected after my exams. (OUCH.) I tell you, it's seriously super pain when she tries to crack my back or add pressure onto my back by "massaging" it. SIGH. I wish I could have a relaxing massage, not a painful one.
I've been shopping online. Erm, I thought I could relieve stress.. And boy did I go mad.. heh. There are so many things I want to buy!! But I have limited $$. hurhur. I shall shop till I drop after my exams. LOOKING FORWARD.
Sometimes I wonder where my friends are.. Am I alone in this world... I feel as though I've lost my closest girlfriends.. Like none of them bother about me any more.. I wish and I wish we were still as close as before.. I wish we were still young and innocent.. I wish we could be each other's priority like we were in the past.. I wish we could go shopping together.. But I guess things change when we grow up? But I thought they always say true friends will always stay by your side? (I know you will stay by my side, but i need assurances. I really do.) I really feel super lonely sometimes.. REALLY.. Will you support me in whatever decisions that I make?
This week's camy was very meaningful. Manrong shared about this: Sometimes we are so caught up with doing every other thing (going for rehearsals, doing sound checks, practising, work.. blah blah blah..) ... but we miss out the MOST important thing of all.. and that is the presence of God. So she asked the team to think about this, "Because You love me..." and verbalise our thoughts during prayer time... because she says that whatever we verbalise might encourage someone else. So here's things the team shared and blessed me.
Because You love me... You send Jesus to die for my sins; You have shown your grace and mercy even though I fail you; You made me; You gave me opportunities to serve You; You gave me talents and abilities to serve You; You chose me to be Your child; I need not find love anywhere else in the world; I can love others; I am brought into Your family; You give me strength...
In conclusion, let me end with this song.
None But Jesus
Brooke Fraser - Hillsong
Verse:
In the quiet in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call I won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose
Chorus:
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise
Verse 2:
In the chaos in confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When YOu call I won't delay
This is my song through all my days
Bridge:
All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord
Forever more
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P/S: Daddy just told me we're going Korea at the end of the year. *yay!*
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P/SS: Food for thought
Aren't the muffins cute? And of course, they spell out my beautiful name -Yi. Cheryl (Ng) made them for me. YAY. Thankee. It made my day. I could feel your love in the muffins. haha.
We( Wing, cheryl [chia], Joanna and I) ate this at Fish & Co. over lunch yesterday. Cute eh. It's a cookie with cookies and cream ice cream, coated with strawberry sauce and chocolate sauce. Yummy. It's called "tomb-stone", to commemorate Halloween. heh.
7:49 PM
